This week’s prompt at the fiveminutefriday.com free writing exercise is: START
So then. . . let’s start:
There are so many things I’ve been going to start recently: eating healthier, losing weight, exercising, being kinder to strangers, volunteering. I planned to start a new book, a new painting, a new recipe. I was going to start praying and studying each morning, start believing God. I wanted to start learning to like myself so I can love myself. On the flip side, there are a gazillion things I’ve been going to start stopping like chocolate, ice cream and caffeine; my critical nature, judgments and unforgiveness; expecting too much, beating myself up, second-guessing God. There are all these should-dos and could-dos and ought-to-dos, all the wish I wouldn’t-haves. Sometimes it’s so overwhelming, so daunting and seemingly impossible I don’t even try at all. I mean, why bother; right? Wrong. It’s said that a thousand-mile journey begins with a single step. So, today I make the commitment to start one thing. Just one. And I’ll start with starting, just moving, just taking a step. I’ll start with expecting myself to stumble and start with saying, “It’s okay”. I’ll start learning forgiveness by giving it to myself and learning grace by extending it to myself. Then I’ll start again with that one thing and maybe get two steps in, then I’ll start the third. I’ll start with the strangers, giving a smile despite how I feel, regardless of my dreary day. I’ll let someone come in front, I’ll give space to the driver next to me. I’ll hold the door and give that needed dollar short. Yes, I think I’ll start there, with my fellow man, my sisters. Seems to me that if I start extending kindness outside it just may come easier inside. I’ll start accepting the little victories, start accepting the setbacks, I’ll start to stop expecting so much and nit-picking my shortcomings. I’ll start accepting you, faults and all. Yes, I think this is a good place to start. I’ll start with Grace.
But to each one of us grace has been given as Christ appointed it. (Ephesians 4:7)